Life of Job?

I wonder sometimes if my life has had more, or less, chaos than is average, and also the affect of the type of chaos it might have been.  When I contemplate this I tend to conclude it is much like the cosmos, in which we are all exactly equidistant from the "edge" of the universe. Our minds seek a center between the acceptable and unacceptable.  To find nothing unacceptable about one's personal situation, in comparison to what one may know about a broader scheme of things may seem polite to someone that has acknowledged their privilege but it is not honest.  The mind finds the negatives, like it finds pain when you are hurt in a relatively serious case.  Indeed, pain is relative to the mean as well.

I feel sometimes that my life is like that of Job, not that I'm familiar with his life in any detail, but in terms of my faith in what I contemplate in spiritual moments. This "faith" has been severely tested but the test reaffirm my need to feel spiritual.  This may or may not be advisable.  I understand the hesitance some of you will feel at such a reference, as I myself am atheist and extremely anti-metaphysical, which stands in contrast to what most will probably consider a "spiritual moment".  That is, it is something somehow related to god, ghosts, or myth.  But to me the spiritual follows from a spiritual feeling.  It is something emperical, a spiritual thought is one I either have when feeling spiritual, or a thought like one I would have while feeling spiritual, which I have strength to recollect.

These thoughts are not exclusively good, but my most robust thoughts, the strongest, are always from this set. Furthermore, they come from a wide spectrum of distinct experiences and types of experiences.  They come from virtually anywhere.

The theme I have gathered from my spiritual experiences is that I am connected to all. I have seen there is no negative and positive ivity, there is instead actuality, reality, and ironically, there is potentiality. I have gathered that I am connected to the universe and this gives me, for example, a christlike notion that it is wrong to hurt an innocent animal.  But this idea exists without reference to christ or any authority in order to justify it. Instead it seems natural, like it could be no other way.

The crisis and chaos which has pursued, and at times overtaken me in my life, has only increased my faith in the sort of thought I tend to have when I also "feel" this feeling I call "the spiritual feeling".  While it is objectionable to many modern minds to rely on a feeling, which is merely "called" by a certain name, which is relied on purely for emotional reasons, the fact that I agree with the objection is a negligable fact in the face of the monumental one which is that a human, quite human, mind has nothing else to rely on but emotional reason.  Emotional reason can be refined, it can be subjected to technical analysis, but it remains at heart emotional. It remains about emotions.

Ultimately philosophy is about emotion and feelings related to the apprehension of new ideas, and  remains emotional.  For example, the emotion of eureka.

Welcome to the blog

I have not blogged for about 6 years, when I stopped doing political blogging and focussed on philosophical videos.  The change was not unrelated, I have long felt that the problem is how people judge their leaders and their press, and the solution to this is people need to re-evaluated their values, and at least some of them need to do this via a philosophical process, consciously.

I may put fiction on this blog, as I have never stopped writing fiction on a daily basis, as well as technical treatments of my philosophical ideas.